day2

mylovemyheartandmysoul.

Hmmm...
My crush, eh?

This is going to be annoying... x-x

Well...
lets go with something that are mandatory for one.

Usually, I act normal around friends, or people that i really don't care for if they judge me. Though, around her, it's a lot different. It's more of a...shy approach? It's like, i'm afraid to be judge, BY them. I don't want them to think negatively of me, but that doesn't help me cause at all. By being reserved, it's not making that much of an impression. So yeah, basically, my love life is fail. :)

Not like my normal life isn't....

I'm not picky about looks, but personality is where it counts. Talking about preferences is really weird. =\ Good attitude, able to sit through something weird/awkward/ or something that would normally aggravate people, understanding and...maybe... and hopefully, more smarter than I am...in academics. :) Beauty is a plus, a bonus mark that really isn't necessary. As long as the basis are great, then the bonus is pointless isn't it? There is no such thing about 100%, and I don't see a reason why you wouldn't want to be 100%+ on my list.

Though crushes are the embarrassing secrets of life, the goals you try to strive towards, push to hard and it just might crumble. It takes years to build a relationship, but takes seconds to crush it. I guess i've taken that path before, tried a bittt too hard (OKAYMAYBENOTABITBUTYOUGETTHEPOINT) and I think i destroyed it.

Not that there was much of a chance anyways.

Though right now, i don't think i've really pushed towards it. Heck, I don't think I've even tried. If it ever seemed like i did, it's probably just an off-beat time.

I think she's slipping. Not out of reach, but out of her place in my heart. Being replaced? No. But surely being moved away. She's like a old masterpiece, being moved from place to place all for others sake.

I dunno, maybe because it's not working, but it hasn't been very long. They usually last longer than this, a year or two at least. But this time...it's different. Is it because I'm changing? Or is it because you're changing? And if it is you, who is changing, is the cause me? Or your important one. Because if it's me...than I'm sorry.

Before these feelings slip back into the endless ocean, let me reveal some truths.

I love you.

But that's kind of obvious isn't it? That's why I'm writing this, and that's why you're the object of description.

If this relationship...is continued somehow, than please remember this.

I may be the "man" of the relationship, but that doesn't mean I'm actually prepared mentally. I'm shy. I'm restrained, and I'm definitely not going to be the first one to ask "Do you have time to _____ to watch a movie?".

Seriously, that just kills me. Sure, it's out of character and all to be telling you all this online, but that doesn't make a difference.

I won't be one of those people who have time to spend on you everyday. Well, not that i won't be, it's that i can't be. I'll kill my laziness for you, but that still won't help much. Restrictions at 15, sad life i've got here.

"I think I'm moving, but I go nowhere."

Anyways....

HERES A FRIKIN' CLUE TO YOU HORES OUT THERE.

AERO CHOCOLATE IS LOVE.♥

IT'S NON-EXISTANT LOL. :)

Tricked noobs. :)

But yeah, i'll never get you, but I can still watch you from afar, and admire your elegance. That will help me some, even if I'm not the special one.

-END OF DAY2-