day27.

A problem that you have had.

...A PROBLEM?
I have shit loads.
I'm not even going to bother naming them.

Lets go with the SECOND-most recent one, since I, for the life of me, can't remember it when I need to.

I hate the way I think.

It's not that I think pervertedly, or nasty, gruesome thoughts, but it's just how I think in general.

Like that one time in math class.
Oh god.

Haven't talked to lily in years(?), maybe months but, whatever. So like, we're talking and then...BAM.
"Why is she talking to me?"
...
"Why's she smiling so much?"
"Whats with all the enthusiasm?"
"The last time I saw her, she wasn't even CLOSE to this hyperactive."
"Whats the reason?"
"She was bored when I came in..."
"...ohshitnoway."
"okaynowtf. thats no it."

and then it was just a continuous loops of thoughts around it. holy crap.
I swear, I'm not even trying to do this...it just ends up chaining together. Like...some sort of mental chain reaction. And hell, do I hate it.

It better not have anything to do with me being a romanticist, or I'll end up slowly torturing myself every thursday, since she is just SO HYPER. ._."
And she doesn't even eat chocolate, holy shit.

But still, my thinking...is just...horrid.
You might disagree but...
"Everyone is entitled to their own opinion, but yours is just stupid."
: )

-totally not being open minded LOL-

But like yeah.
Who knew I'd talk about such things..on a blog.
...
one that people read(?).
This better not become a habit or...
...oh god. @_@

endday27.